So I’m on new medication called Mirtazapine 15mg and I think these ones are actually working. I take them at night around 9pm, so I’ve been sticking to a routine by taking them at the same time every night.
Firstly it made me very tired to begin with and secondly I have the munchies at night. I can’t stop wanting to eat but I’ve heard from other people that they have the same affect on them too. It’s also given me so much energy that I cleaned my entire bedroom and hooved up as well. Then the next day I folded clothes and put them away, this is not something I do. I’m a very messy person and normally you’d see plates of food on my floor, pants everywhere and the odd electric plug lying around the floor. Normally I fall over the plugs and get angry and maybe swear at myself and then go about my day.
So the room is clean and I can walk around without hurting myself but now I’m finding that I don’t know what to do with myself even though I have a shelf full of books and another shelf full of DVDs and I have an Xbox One.. So you’d think I’d have something to do right? Well I’ve been watching a show on Netflix called “Skins” and it’s pretty awesome.
Also I’ve finally been able to go out without my headphones and that’s a big thing for me because normally they’re with me 24/7 because I get paranoid that people are staring at me or laughing at me or talking about me.. So I tend to zone myself out but this time I managed to get my mom out the house too and we went shopping together which we haven’t done in such a long time and it felt really good.. We bonded a little I think.. I want to try and make my relationship better with my mom if it’s even possible.
This medication has made me somewhat happy and I haven’t felt that way in such a long time, I hope it lasts because I don’t want to get my hopes up to only see myself back in a hole.. Though I’m hoping 2017 will be the year that I have a job and my own house again without 5 other people..2017 might be the year I swim from the ocean and reach the surface.
What are your plans for 2017? I’d love to know.
xo Tris xo