Captain Kathryn Janeway

Captain Kathryn Janeway who is played by the outstanding and divine Kate Mulgrew  made a really BIG impact on my life. When I was younger I started watching Star Trek: Voyager and the first character to really hit me was Captain Janeway.

At first her character was beautiful, she’s kind and she has something that drags you in and makes you want more. For me Kate did that. Kathryn taught me be strong when times were tough and to punch your way through. Kate Mulgrew who played Captain Janeway actually helped me to come out to my mom as a lesbian.. Captain Janeway was the first female character I had ever been attracted too and when I did “Come Out” I felt like I could be myself. Her character picked me up whenever I felt low or anxious.

Kathryn taught me to fight my fears, to be who you truly want to be..She also taught me that you can do anything in life if you think positive.. Her character helped me to come to terms with my Depression and to know that I wasn’t alone. I would watch Voyager whenever I felt depressed because I felt that I had support and it made me feel better and it always cheered me up.

My favourite quote from Captain Janeway is this:

Fear exists for one purpose: To be conquered

When I was younger I got bullied for coming out as a lesbian and I used to get bullied for having Epilepsy and Star Trek: Voyager was the only thing that kept me going, I did school work and college work around Voyager and made essays on Star Trek: Voyager.. I remember when I was in english and I had to choose who I admired or looked up to for inspiration and I chose Kate Mulgrew.

Kate Mulgrew made me feel better about myself, her character Kathryn was a strong and independant woman and I wanted to be like that, I wanted to be like her. Kate is someone I’ve always looked up to because she keeps me going when I have dark days. She’s helped me through bullying, abuse, suicide.. If I never watched Star Trek: Voyager I honestly don’t know where I’d be.

When I watched an episode of Voyager it instantly made me want to continue watching, every time someone bullied me or called me something horrible I’d watch Voyager, whenever my Depression got bad.. Voyager was there for me picking up the pieces..

Kate Mulgrew may never know how she has helped me or made me the woman that I am today, but one day if I do meet her I will say thank you.. Though I’ll probably just write in a letter and hand it to her myself, I don’t think I’d be able to speak to her because of how much she means to me.

She made me feel normal, she made me realise that I can be who I want to be, I can be strong even when I don’t feel strong. Kate makes me believe that I can do anything and she’s someone I shall always look up to for support and guidance.. Kate Mulgrew keeps me going and they’ll never be a day where I won’t watch Star Trek Voyager.. Star Trek: Voyager has brought me many friends who are like family and for that I’m grateful.

It is good to have an end to journey toward; but it is the journey that matters in the end

I also wanted to share a little fact, I had my name changed last year, it used to be Natalie Jayne Breach and now it’s Tris-Kathryn Prior. Why did I have my named changed? I had my name changed because I got bullied for having head lice and Natalie got cut down to Nat or NatNat and even Nithead which was the worst and I didn’t like who I was so I became someone better.

My name comes from two strong characters, the first is from Divergent.. Tris who is one of the main characters struggles to find herself but in the end she comes to terms with who she is and she soon finds out what she wants to be.. And Kathryn? That name comes from Captain Kathryn Janeway..

Why? Because Kathryn made a huge impact on my life and taught me to love myself and to be who I want to be and not what others expect me to be. I chose the name Kathryn because I’ve always liked it and it’s also made me a better person, I feel free most of the time and I feel like I can be strong even when the road gets a little bumpy..There’s always a light at the end of the tunnel and for that’ll be a waiting hand..Kathryn Janeway’s hand which will be there forever and always when I need her. ❤

The Girl In The Shadows

 

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