I’ve been struggling with some online training and the second I think I’ve got it right I get “Not Quite” I’m trying my best to get it done and I’m 66% in and I’ve still got so much to do. It’s now starting to stress me out because I know what to do but when it comes to doing a knowledge check my mind goes right out the window.
I think I’m also coming down with a cold because my nose feels all blocked up and I’ve been feeling a lot of pressure against my nose and it’s been like that for awhile but it could be something else. I’m not messing up at work anymore I’ve worked out the 00’s. for example when someone gives me say £40 because their shopping came to 34.50 something and so then I’d put £40.00 which then is right and because I used to forget the 00’s and so it would go to 40p instead of £40 and I felt so crap when I was making huge mess ups like that. I’m trying my best to improve but now I’m thinking is this job really for me? Because I don’t want to let others down and make the store loose money. I’m not good with maths but I give it my all when I try and do things.
I’ve gotten myself into a routine now and I like that but If this job doesn’t work out for me then that routine will go out the window..Literally. I don’t want that to happen because then I’ll be sleeping and eating and just not leaving the house whatsoever. So I am trying my best even though it kinda doesn’t feel like it. I just want to be good at something.. But maybe retail just isn’t for me… I’m having a debbie downer day. Cheer me up if you can.
I just kinda wish I was perfect..
The Girl In The Shadows