So I originally went to the doctors this morning for another sick note for work and whilst I was there I mentioned to my doctor that my medication is making my whole body and legs super heavy so I know it’s going to cause problems for when I do return to work.. All she said was “Oh it’s just a side effect” so to me it just felt like she was saying suck it up and deal with it.
I asked if I could see a psychiatrist and she said that there had been a referral sent to a psychiatrist but they’d refused the referral so I can’t see one yet.. But I have a number for counseling which I’m going to ring on Monday. I’ve also taken another 2 weeks off work because I don’t feel ready to go back to work and honestly I don’t think I ever will.
I’m already feeling so anxious about going back to work.. And I’ve got a letter off my doctor for work saying that I can’t work night shifts like stock take because I take my medication at 9pm and when I take my medication I can barely stand let alone work so it’ll be hard to do stock count when I’m not at my best and apparently it could now cause me problems because it’s in my contract.. Nothing seems to be going right when it comes to work.. Honestly feel like I should quit before work drops me because of my Mental Health problems 😦
On a good note though I bought myself 2 new books and 2 new pairs of pjs. I got A Game Of Thrones and If I was Your Girl.. I know I have too many books already but meh I wanted something new to read.
Oh and I bought some tennis balls so I can throw them at my wall.. Maybe a good idea for when I’m angry I suppose..
Thank you for all the support and advise that you have given me, it means a lot to me.
The Girl In The Shadows